Probably I was destined to pen down this ‘pain’. Despite hectic schedule I was shackled to, I hopped in to visit some of the prolific bloggers’ page. “Agony of Valentine’s Day” by spontaneous writer Tashi P Ganzin, seriously hooked me up. Perusing through, somewhere I was stuck, how is that being ‘Single’ and ‘Alone in love’ differ? I categorise them as one and the same. While Tashi is, atleast, having Almighty as her valentine, it is my bad luck I am alone in love, staying thousands of miles far from someone I dearly love. It is worse than being single, believe me, thinking of having someone to staywith when she is not actually beside you is way far worst. Indeed, coping with separation especially when we are in love can be one of the hardest experiences life hands us.
I live on without her by my side, the mornings greet me and the nights bid me to sleep, and yet, their sweetness is not just the same as of those being with her. Deep down me there is always a feeling of something missing, emptiness… I just wish like having the most tedious days of life which in a way will keep me engaged to fill a void that is always present within me. But as the day slows down, the memory of her catches up, the longing of my aching heart begin to creep up within and the hope that someday both of us will be together again is the only thing that keeps me going.
However alone in love I am, however desperate I seem to spend Valentine’s day, every other second, minute, hour and day with her, somewhere I noticed time and separation is actually strengthening our love for I know it is not an infatuation which gets weakened with time, distance and separation. I am happy for I sustain a great pain because a pain of separation only happens when we are in true love. I am convinced ours is a true love. Truer the love greater the pain is something I learnt through this separation.
“There is one pain I often feel, which you will never know. It is caused by the absence of you.”
